ich liebs einfach weil es so viel fühlen lässt diese Powerdynamiken sind so spannend, die Situation aus der Schule shifted komplett im College, aber ihre Beziehung bleibt in ihrer jeweiligen Wahrnehmung die gleiche er hat macht über sie, sie hat aber auch so viel macht über ihn, was sie einfach nicht sieht Und ich weiß bis heute nicht ob sie gut füreinander sind, sie haben sich zu besseren Personen gemacht aber da geht so viel zwischen den beiden verloren weil keiner kommunizieren kann was er oder sie eigentlich gerade fühlt oder möchte Also fr der ganze plot wäre anders verlaufen wenn man das was man denkt auch sagen würde Aber das machts so fesselnd zu lesen, man kanns nicht weglegen, weil man denkt das kann doch nicht sein!!! Und dieses obviously von connell junge raff dich gedanken lesen könn ma fei net gell We love lorraine und die Serie wird dem Buch auch sehr gerecht!!! Jamie, die mutter und der bruder, auch rob und eric und der schwedische hundesohnfotograf jail wirklich ab in die hölle verbrennt da einfach bitte

Ich liebe liebe LIEBE dieses Buch! Bitte lesen wenn ihr es noch nicht gemacht habt!!⭐️😋

I think every day about this book

(Spoilers!) „Marianne, he said, I’m not a religious person but I do sometimes believe God made you for me.“ I’m really unsure how to give this book a proper rating because I’m actually pretty torn about it. First of all, some of the scenes are in extreme detail, for example when Connell picks at the label of a bottle, which I found really relatable in a subtle way. Second of all, over the last couple of books that I read, I became a person who highlights pretty passages in books, when I feel I need to. I needed to, I definitely read many statements and descriptions (even though Rooney uses too many similes for my taste), that were beautifully written. Overall the story was a little slow, which in retrospect seems surprising when you think about the timeline, which is about four years. To the writing: It doesn’t have quotation marks, which I find immensely irritating. BUT, here it made sense. The text is from both Marianne’s and Connell’s perspective. It reads like a stream of consciousness of two people melted into one, where you can’t exactly know where one person begins and the other ends. Connell and Marianne seem to not be able to live without each other and their lives stay intertwined forever. Even if it might sometimes seem like they shouldn’t. What I didn’t like was the miscommunication trope. I know that there wouldn’t be a story without this trope but it was infuriating and frustrating, I can’t even begin to describe how badly I wanted to punch something or someone. Connell is always afraid of what might happen, even though he knows that it wouldn’t really be a problem to just tell the truth (he tries sometimes, gotta give him that). Although she herself thinks so, Marianne is not a bad person, and even less when it comes to Connell. But she assumes. She assumes the worst as soon as Connell does something that throws her off even a little. Then she gets passive agressive and cold and shuts him out. That’s when he thinks that she doesn’t love or want him which is what she leads him to believe with her behavior to protect her heart (which is obviously his since the beginning). It becomes crystal clear however, why she does this, in the scenes with her abusive brother Alan. At first I really liked both protagonists, but in the progressing story I started to actually dislike them, Marianne mostly. The second half of the book became more captivating, like in that moment it’s really starting, when up until that point it still felt like an introduction. „I didn’t need to play any games with you, she says. It was real.“ Marianne has some really weird kinks (that aren’t really kinks but just really deeply rooted, concerning issues) but oh well. The way she needs Connell and wants to submit to him seems really toxic and unhealthy. You can even see that Connell himself is worried about this especially because of her family background. You’d think, Marianne is afraid of herself, she’s a people pleaser, maybe, but in reality she’s not hindering but prolonging an unnecessary conflict between herself and the love of her life. Marianne does not believe that she is a good person and Connell is depressed and suicidal. Great match, huh. „Sorry for calling you, it’s the only number I knew off the top of my head.“ This is why I was rooting for them anyways. She’s his person. He’s her person. They belong together. They could’ve been happy all along, all the mistakes aside. When she needs help she calls him and he her. They protect each other. They love each other. Most importantly, they can be themselves with each other. Or they could. I hate the ending. It ends in a fight. Well, not a fight, because again, they don’t communicate well. (There’s, I believe, around two examples of real communication.) It has a hopeful tone, yes („I’ll always be here“), but she also states that it won’t ever be like „this“ again, whatever this is. With their track record I don’t see them ever having a happy ending, rather a life exactly like what happens in this excerpt of their story, that sure as hell stays their story, two souls intertwined. Two pages before the actual ending, I’ve decided, is now my ending, because they’re happy.